Well, for those of you who read my post on Sunday night about my need for happy medicine, it couldn't have been more ironic that I wrote about that the night before I had an "episode" on Monday. I'm not talking about an irrational, crazy state of mind kind of episode. No, I'm talking about withdrawal symptoms from stopping taking my Lexapro COLD TURKEY. I didn't stop taking it on purpose, I didn't have a regular prescription for it and only had samples from the dr. I.E., I RAN OUT OF MY MEDS. I have taken other anti-depressants before with no side effects and no withdrawal symptoms either but this time was very different.
I was feeling sorta bad Sunday night but just thought it was because I was tired. So I decided to sit down at the computer and do some blogging. I felt better after I sat in front of the computer for a while so I figured that I was just tired. I went to bed about midnight and some time during the night, my husband woke me up to see if I was ok. I told him yes and asked him why. He said that he woke up and heard me breathing REALLY heavy. I told him I was fine and went back to sleep. I should explain something here as well. My husband has been telling me for about a week or so that I have been snoring at night. My explanation was that I was really tired. He thought something was wrong because the only times that I have snored was when I was pregnant with our 2 children, I was sick or EXTREMELY TIRED. Anyway, when I woke up yesterday morning, I thought I had dreamed it but later found out that it was for real.
I got up yesterday morning and felt ok but not great. I figured I was just tired because I didn't go to bed at a decent time. I got my little girl ready for daycare and myself ready for work and we left. I got to work but I still didn't feel quite right. I was dizzy and light headed. I wondered if it was an inner ear problem. I figured that I would just be a little dizzy for a while and would be ok later. Since I work for OIT (Office of Information Technology) at a 4 yr University here in MS, I am sometimes going around campus to work on computers or sometimes to even replace them. Well, yesterday morning, I had to take 2 of our student workers and go to the School of Nursing to replace some computers in the classrooms. I had already told one of my co-workers that I wasn't feeling well and he said to just make sure that the students did all of the lifting and moving around of the computers and just to take it easy. He knows that if I say that I feel bad, then I mean it. I'm not a faker and most all sick time I've taken this year was either for my husband or my children. As many of you mommies know, as a mommy, you're not allowed to be sick!
Anyway, after I got over there, I still couldn't shake how I felt. I found one of the nursing instructors and asked her to take my blood pressure. She took it and it was a little high. It was 130/98. If you know anything about blood pressure, the bottom number is a big deal. My blood pressure is usually 120/70 which is normal (give or take a point or two). The only other time I've had high blood pressure was when I was pregnant with my first child and had preeclampsia. Otherwise, my BP has always been normal. She said that she would check it later on for me to see if it was still up. I continued to work (ie, instructed the students what to do) and I tried to take it easy and sit a good bit to keep my BP from rising anymore. Well, I went to lunch with some friends and sat the whole time. I was feeling ok because I was sitting and not getting up and down. I started feeling bad after I got back from lunch.
After lunch I was called back over to the School of Nursing to look at something else and when I was over there, I was walking around the building making some phone calls and looking at the smart carts, wiring, etc in some of the classrooms. I started having problems catching my breath and had to stop several times to take a few deep breaths. It finally came to a point where I felt like I was going to pass out. I asked the same instructor to take my BP again and this time it was pretty high. If I heard her correctly, I believe it was something around 142/110 (give or take a few points). At that point I was FREAKING OUT! I started crying because I had no idea what was going on and I felt like I was going to pass out.
To be continued...
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